Not a great day. OCD has been bad lately, hands were cracked and
bleeding the weekend. Still very dry now. Got confronted yesterday with
my fear of cat poop when my new tenant(my friend)'s cat stepped in their
own poop and dragged some across the floor then walked around before he
took her to clean her feet. He cleaned up the floor with Lysol wipes, and cleaned her foot, but I'm still fearful concentrating on the fact that the cat walked around for a bit before we realized she had it still on her foot - especially walking on his area rug. I coped fairly well last night, but I am
still holding high anxiety about it. I was dreaming last night about
cleaning the apartment and his area rug in the living room.
So now me thinking about why I feel this way, etc has gotten
me on to thinking about my past abuse. And here is where I stand now. Just feeling crummy.Not sure if I'm going to go to the gym or not. I had planned on it, but forgot my sports bra or another bra, so if I do go, I'm going to feel gross afterwards. So I'm not sure what I'm doing. Although lifting some weights and stuff would probably be good for me.
