So it is my third week back to work and already the old routine/habits are creeping in. Getting up later, getting to work later, loathing coming here each day, and not wanting to do anything after work. Don't want to go to the gym (the heat has been a factor as well), don't want to go to Costco or get groceries, barely want to go swimming, or for a walk, or to the park. Back to pretty much living for the weekends and stumbling through the week enough to survive.
I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
My OCD has gotten worse too, or at least my arms have. I don't wash too many times here at work, but the soap is harsh and I am often uncomfortable. I hope Ebola doesn't make it to Canada for I fear I'll spiral into uncontrollable fear for my life. I can see myself being utterly terrified, and it scares me.
I've applied to two jobs lately where I have heard something back about my application: The Little Gym and Aramark. Aramark is for a management type role and The Little Gym is as a Full Time Instructor.
The Littler Gym job would be a dream. Words cannot express how much I am excited for this opportunity and how much I want it. It would also work perfectly for me wanting to get into Social Work - perfect for the required work/volunteer hours. I hope I hear something back about it soon, as I"m losing steam now. The Aramark Job I am not 100% sold on. It will depend on numerous factors whether I accept if I am offered a job.
I feel so drained, and it is only Tuesday and I had lots of rest the weekend. Praying for Regatta day holiday tomorrow and hoping to take Friday off to go home.
